Clouds...

The only thing I would look at when I'm sad. It suits my mood. It calms me. I try to find a silver lining behind every cloud, because it reminds me of God being so great. I reminds me that God is always there for me. Something will bound to happen, despite all the bad things.

Clouds...

It would not have been the same when I'm angry. I would just look at the clouds, hoping that it would take my anger away, but NO! I look at it, close my eyes and look elsewhere. Not what I would wish to see when I'm angry, because too many things are forming in my head, I just can't keep calm.

Whenever you see me looking at the clouds, be reminded of what I said. I'm sad.

Switch!

I'm not sad today.. Haha. More of Happy!! Gee:D But just thought of writing this.

Today was great. Greater than I thought it would be. Though bits of bad comes along the way, but they get get out of my head as soon as they got in. I don't know why, but somehow, today just felt different. It felt like I was living a new lease of life.

I'm reading this book called "Out of Order", and the story seems to match my life a little. Not the things done, but more of the mental and emotional ones. This book captures me. It feel like I'm reading my own story, just different settings and different people, doing different things. Why had I chosen this book? I still wonder. But I have no idea why is this book so attractive, to me. It feels different looking at this book and others. It feels... REAL.

I never liked reading. But this book is a magnet. I can never get my eyes off it, not till I'm done with it.

Tomorrow, 1st Sunday, Ushering. My mind's just thinking about Hospitality Comm now. I don't know if it was the right choice. I thought it was, but I didn't commit it to God. I don't know if this was where He wants me to serve. It may be something I'm capable of, but I won't know for sure. I'm also worried that I'll miss out on a lot in H Comm. I'm busy... well, most of the time. I have to cope everything. I can't do this alone, can I? Feels..... (I don't know).....crazy? Too much.