Sorry Jesus.

I look back at so many days.... days where I'm jusy having my own fun, laughter serenity and joy. I think of it as something really awesome, so to speak. But have I thought of how much I've glided? Have I actually realised that my pace is getting slower and slower, getting further and further from God?

My days have seemed so packed and I've been so left with this burden of countless things to complete. The homework and whatnots are weighing me down. Only through these stuff, did I pause to ponder. I just couldn't see clearly that I was drifting so far from God. Everything was so perfectly fine in the beginning... But gradually, I lost that heart. I know deep down, I lack something. Something important, something big. Never thought it would be my most beloved. He loved me, He saved me, He healed me...etc. Now, I'm just kicking Him out of the door of my heart. He's so innocent, yet He has to be tortured, rejected and left aside by me over and over again. I just can't bring myself to face Him in heaven when the time arrives.... there's a guilty conscience that disapproves me to do so.

I need to get back to my old days, where I was so deeply in love, so grateful, so "obsessed" with God. I miss those times. I have to once again invite Jesus to come into my heart, throw a party and rejoice. I need to keep that flame big and alive!

SORRY JESUS. You are now welcome to my new heart.