That's It!

I've been enraged today during CO. Juniors are totally getting from bad to worse, horribly out of control. So much for being a pampered batch. They know nothing about people's feelings. Speak to them nicely, don't listen, don't reply. Shout at them, show black face, ignore. So in return, I ignored them also. It's irritating to know that they can come into the classroom without their instrument. It's even worse when you ask them to play and they lie on the table, stoning away with their stuff all kept.

I don't know why I wasted so much time and effort on them when I know they won't even bother to listen. I don't understand how I could afford to worry for them when it's their turn for SYF. I've lost hope in them. Weeks before the June Holidays, they were practising the basic piece. Till now, still same piece...no improvement(notes still flat, breathe at every note they play), no slight change at all. I see no point in teaching them/guiding them.

If I get scolded by teacher, so be it. I won't want to argue anymore -- useless. I'm just going to care about myself now. They want to learn, they come find me. I've lost the interest in bringing up pro-suona-players-to-be. In fact, I won't scold them anymore. I won't sit in front of them begging them to take their instruments and play. I'll let them do whatever they want.

No! I won't regret this! It's ripping too much of me... I give up!