Woohoo! Surprisingly I managed to sleep through till 9.45. Prayers do get answered by God. I feel so alive!!

Anyway, today wasn't a 100% good day either. My father's side grandma was in hospital, and I was there for a visit. And for a short visit, I now have a long story to tell.

I stepped into the Hospital and suddenly all the past memories came flashing back like a video clip. I remember the first time I step into a hospital when I was primary 1. Back then, I was at East Shore, doing an X-Ray, due to a fall which fractured my left wrist. There after, I had to go to Gleneagles about 2 times a week to change my cast. That was one tough period. I could not do things properly. I remember I had to trouble my partner to write for me. Well, at least it was my left hand and not my right. That was one thought.

The next was the time my mother's side grandma had diabetes. So sad, thinking about it now. Then, I didn't even know why was all these happening and I didn't even care much. My grandma's leg was amputated and I only visited her a few times. She came home. Then one day she had stroke and was admitted again. That time was during the SARS period. And the worst of all things was I wasn't even allowed to visit, cause they restricted large number of visitors. And that was when she died. Looking back into those days, I realise how much my grandma meant to me. I did not show what I felt inside, but it just brings me to tears in bed when my parents was fast asleep.

The love from my grandma was of much difference compared to that of my parents. The way she told me stories about the kampong days till I fall asleep. Everything was sweet when I was with her. Then her funeral... I just didn't dare look into the coffin. That pale look. I peeked and walked away with shock. When she was burnt... when her ashes where collected... When I went to visit her remains... All were memories. This reminds me that her death anniversary is coming soon. May...

That's not all, cause the thought about death came to me again. I just thought what will it be like when I'm old? How will I die? I really hope the end time comes so I don't have to face death or old age. I want to see Jesus coming down on snow white horses or clouds to bring everyone who trusts in Him, home to heaven where we first came from. I just want to be cleansed and purified and be brought back into eternity with the Lord.