In My Brokeness

In my brokeness of Lisabeth solving relationship problem, I cry out to God and ask Him to release this heavy load. It hurts to see someone so close and dearly loved by me hurting emotionally. I understand that not many would be able to accept her for this period, but for me, I'm different. When she's down, I'm badly hurt to. It then occured to me that there's a possibility of me not being able to live in peace if she's not around. I've been caring so much about her, I wonder if she does that to me too. She's going to be my lifelong friend. And thinking of this, it so happens that God spoke to me. God told me that this is exactly how I would feel when I'm down. Broke down and thanked Him. Now I've understood and felt it.

In my brokeness of my E Maths results and A Maths paper, I nearly gave up. That E Maths was not difficult, but I didn't manage to score, just because of those careless mistakes made. I could have gotten 8 more marks if not because of thye fact that I had no time to check. And that last question that's worth two marks, I could have easily gotten it if there was sufficient time for me to complete. Such a waste... And A Maths paper, I'm going to fail it. Out of 7 questions, I knew only how to do 2. And out of the two, there's a possibility of me not getting them correct. Though I scribbled some workings for other 3-4 questions, I may still not get score, since I didn't even know what I was doing.

So overall of today, I was just down... In moments like these, God still cares. I never expected this to be sent to me by Daily Manna. It heals the scar. It brings me to Him.

This was what it says:

If you are a believer in the Lord Jesus Christ, He says even in catastrophic times He is not only with you but longing to pour out through you. God's Word that you have been storing away in the quiet times with Him can be revealed through your brokenness. He sees your pain, and His heart breaks with your every hurt. You are dearly loved. Hold on to His promise that your brokenness is not wasted but releases His Spirit to do works of perseverance, power, character and hope.

When you are down, turn to God. He will never fail you, I assure you. God is good andd His love endures forever. I treasure this day though serverly hurt. It's through God and His Holy Spirit that I'm empowered to go on and not look back to feel sad about it, but to go on and learn from it.

Amen!